Wednesday, 10 September 2014

Big School!!!

Adi started reception last week! She is at BIG SCHOOL NOW!!

She has settled in really well and is very happy. Adi is showing me yet again that all my fretting about her being able to cope with a whole day at school is just unnecessary. She is such a determined fighter.

Now we have to make sure everything is in place to ensure she can do the very best she can do. Adi's determined nature means that it is easy to miss when she is struggling with something. Over the holidays we found that Adi needed her hearing aids turned up as her hearing has deteriorated quite a lot, particularly in her left ear - this happens with ototoxicity (hearing loss due to chemotherapy). They don't know if it will continue to get worse or at what point it might stabilise. Her poor sight in her left eye, especially when she is wearing a patch on her right eye, will affect her ability to see the board and what the teacher is doing. Adi is still not as steady as the other children when it comes to physical activities and is likely to be left behind when her friends are running around. On top of all of that are the hidden issues - the cognitive development issues that we are not aware of yet and may only be obvious as she progresses through the education system.

We applied to the local authority for an 'Education and Healthcare Plan', which will allow Adi to access more support in the classroom but have been turned down. Apparently this is normal, very few children are granted extra support on the first application. It just begs the question 'why?'. Parents of children with special needs have enough stress in their lives, why is it necessary to pile on more?

We have been told that if Adi gets the support we need now, then there is no reason why she can't live a fully independent and useful life when she is an adult. Without the support now, she may continue to need additional help (and cost the taxpayer more)....so why oh why does it need to be so hard to get that help?

I am confident that with the school's support, Adi can achieve anything she wants to but wish it wasn't so difficult to get there!!!

Friday, 22 August 2014

People are wonderfully kind

We've just come back from a lovely holiday thanks to the Emily Ash Trust - who's caravan we stayed in this week. We hadn't booked a holiday as we couldn't think past Adi's July scan but as soon as it was over, we realised that we really needed to get away. We were very lucky that Emily Ash understand that families may need holidays at short notice or to cancel them as well and we were able to book their caravan in Battle. A whole week of swimming and beaches and farms and science and making new friends.

When we got back there was an amazing gift waiting for us - a playmobil hospital - that a very, very kind person had sent to Adi after hearing how much she loved playmobil and how role play was helping her work through her anxieties. Just the best present anyone could give her - Adi's thrilled and been checking the patients ears after our visit to GOSH this morning.

Thank you Ebay Seller, Michelle!!
Yes, not even one day back from holiday and straight back into hospital appointments  - Adi's hearing aids needed adjusting quite significantly to counter her continued hearing loss in her left ear. She's now got to get used to the louder sounds - so they haven't turned it up the whole way, we will have to go back for the next level in a few weeks. The audiologist at GOSH has also been lovely and will be writing a strong letter for us to help us get Adi a much needed education healthcare plan. We found out this morning that we have been turned down by the panel but that is for another, moanier post. For now I just want to think about people's kindness and generosity  - lifts me every time and makes horrible days easier to deal with.





Saturday, 9 August 2014

Eyes, ears and whiskers

Adi had appointments for eyes and ears at GOSH yesterday.

We needed to go back for ears as they suspected the hearing had got worse in her left ear a couple of weeks ago - we were hoping it was just because she was tired but the yesterday's test indicates that it has got worse. We will be going back in a couple of weeks just to make sure and for them to adjust her hearing aid accordingly. That's the trouble with hearing damaged by chemotherapy, they don't know what effect it will have over the long term, if it will get worse or even better.

Adi's right eye has got pretty good vision but her left eye is now nearly blind. We have been loosely trying to improve it through patching the right but Adi hates it and tends to take her patch off after 30 minutes. I've been pretty lax with it as I hate to cause her any more discomfort and have been avoiding the arguments. Until now, the consultants have also been pretty relaxed about it  - their view has been that she can manage fine with one good eye. However, if we are going to make a difference we have to do it now, before she gets too old and, with her hearing being more fragile, I have had a wake up call and need to pull my socks up.

 On the way home from GOSH Dave and I had to come up with a new scheme. We have tried reasoning, reward charts and threats but Adi doesn't really understand the reasoning or relate the chart to an actual prize at the end. She certainly doesn't pay any attention to my threats....hmmm....may have to rethink my earlier flippancy about spoiling Adi! So we ended up visiting the Toy Shop and coming out with a playmobil park (luckily on special offer). Adi loves playmobil and this has several different parts to it - swings, slides, bikes, bbq. We allowed her to  choose one part for being so good and the other parts she has to work for. For every day Adi wears her patch (and it has to be for at least 6 hours a day), she will get a star. She puts that star on the picture of the toy she wants and when she gets to 5 stars, she gets that toy - not too often to bankrupt us and not too distant that she loses interest in her reward. We still have a chance to improve her left eye and we need to take it.

I was a bit shaken yesterday but in the grand scheme of things we know it's not bad. I was also glad to meet Paula, GOSH's sight liaison person and her guide dog Greg. We didn't know Paula existed until yesterday, and it was a chance comment to the play worker that led to our introduction to her....we find things like this do get overlooked quite a lot. We also only found out about Radar keys that unlock all disabled toilets in the UK a couple of weeks ago!! Paula deals with all things not medical, so was able to advise us about Adi's educational statement and help us understand how Adi would learn to live with her disabilities much better than we would! A word of advice though, if you are going through any similar experiences - talk to people. Join facebook groups, talk to others in similar situations, even if you don't feel like it - it is often the only way you get to hear about small but important things like radar keys or the Paula's of this world, and every little thing like that makes life that little bit easier.

Thursday, 7 August 2014

Thinking of Lockey

This little boy is call Laughlin (Lockey) Poyser. He is sitting on a pile of boxes that are destined to bring smiles to children in GOSH who are having bone marrow transplants. Lockey knows how miserable that is, he had to undergo a transplant himself. The boxes were his idea.

It was also Lockey's idea to have a happy beach hut where children with brain tumours could have fun day's out. We've spent two very lovely days there ourselves. Lockey also knows how miserable that can be as, before he had leukemia and the bone marrow transplant, he fought a medulloblastoma - the same brain tumour as Adi.

So it's not very fair that yesterday he and his wonderful family found out that Lockey has had a relapse. Today the team at GOSH are talking to their comrades in the USA to try to find a way  - experimental even - of keeping Lockey with us. Please send him your love - visit his webpage -pray for him - think of him. Send him all the wonderful, positive vibes that you sent, and still send, Adi.

http://www.unlockalifeforlockey.co.uk/ 

Monday, 21 July 2014

School reports

On Friday I got our kids school reports.

Ashers was fine - average all the way, nothing amazing, nothing terrible.

Adi's was similar - what she can do, that she has made progress and is well behaved.

As parents we are very happy and relieved, especially with Asher. With Adi, it might be more obvious - she has settled well into nursery, she wants to learn and is making friends. There are issues with her hearing, she will get overly upset at small changes in routine and she may get knocked over or pushed out the way easily. But in general, she is keeping up with her peers and for that we will be forever grateful. We know other children who have suffered many more disabilities and hardships after having the same tumour and, so far, we are doing amazingly well. Much of that is down to our tenacious Adi and her 'nothing's gonna stop me' attitude.

With Asher, however, the fact that he has kept up with his peers and achieved his 'age-related expectations' is a relief. Despite everything that has been thrown at him, his sister's continual visits to hospital, her near total domination of my attention,  my husband's and my stress and bad tempers, our distraction at scan times, my inability to remember to check his school bag for homework or forms, the way my exhaustion means I don't make him sit and finish homework, my forgetfulness when he asks for a drink or something to eat....despite all of those things Asher is doing fine. He has friends, is achieving his targets and still loves me.

I am hopeful that next year will continue to show improvement. Adi starts reception, I have applied for an educational statement for her to receive additional help to make sure she continues to keep up. I am optimistic that, if Adi's scans continue to be clear, I will have a bit more 'brainspace' as I call it, for Asher and his academic development....he's come this far pretty much by himself, hopefully if I can move myself to action, he can be top of the year!

Monday, 7 July 2014

One year cancer free!!!

Adi's scan was clear!

We knew she was fine and we knew that Dr Slater, our consultant, would ring us if there had been a problem, but still this morning I was gripped with the thought 'what if there is something she wants to tell us face to face?'. So when I gave her a terrified look because she hadn't immediately given us the 'OK', she looked at me as if I was mad, 'it's fine' she said, 'you know I would have rung you if anything had changed'. We do know this, Olga Slater has been amazing throughout this horrific journey but I think we just need to hear her say it out loud. Just to be completely sure.

She is happy with Adi and how she is doing. She is not yet ready to reduce the frequency of Adi's scans, so the next one will be in October but so far so good!

Sunday, 6 July 2014

2 years today.....

It was two years today that Adi went into surgery to remove a 4.5cm tumour from the back of her head.

She was in surgery for 7 hours. Dave and I went to the pub for a while, Dave's sister, Anna, joined us and my friend, Nikki, too. I nearly got into a fight over a spilled drink - not something I would normally do. Tomorrow we find out if we got that tumour or if anything has come back. Tomorrow we find out if Adi has made it one year with No Evidence of Disease, or NED as it is termed on the oncology Facebook pages.

It has been a mad couple of weeks. We have had Adi's latest scan hanging over us for a while...in truth we breathe for about a week before we start worrying about the next one. The pressure starts to build up as we get closer and we look for any clues that we might have missed. Dave and I start to get more crabby with eachother and more scatty with our friends. So, while we had a wonderful time at Retreat, we were all too aware that the scan was coming up.

The scan was last Tuesday, the day after my birthday. Adi was diagnosed 2 days after my fortieth. Dave had taken me out but we knew Adi wasn't well and were worried the whole time we were out. I suspect that my birthdays are going to precede scan days for the rest of my life now. Like last year, I wasn't really that keen on celebrating this year but then another amazing family gave me a wonderful way to relax, have fun and forget about the impending scan.

Laughlan is now 7. He was diagnosed with medulloblastoma when he was 4. He overcame that, only to be diagnosed with a secondary cancer AML leukemia, cased by the chemotherapy he received to treat the brain tumour. He received a bone marrow transplant and is proving to be a true warrior. The beach hut was his idea - a place where kids with brain tumours and their families can go and have fun for the day. That is where we went for my birthday and we had an absolute blast!! Gorgeous beach hut, miles of lovely beach and a funfair on the pier, perfect for kids Adi and Asher's age...I actually forgot all about the scan and had a really special day - we all did! Just thinking about it makes me smile, and I need a little light relief tonight! Thank you Lockey xxxxx

To find out more about Laughlan and the beach hut visit: http://www.unlockalifeforlockey.co.uk .